Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Confessions of a Hemophiliac's mom..

Have I become neurotic because I fret over my son constantly, or have I always been neurotic?

It is true that you become more obsessed when you have a child. Fear grows in you at the mere mention of your children getting hurt.

When your child has a bleeding disorder your neurotic frame of mind intensifies. You want to make sure your son is ok, but you don't want to overdo it - except you do end up overdoing it and that is when you label yourself neurotic!

Christmas is fast approaching and if I could postpone it for another month I would! I have yet to go Christmas shopping. How can I? I seem to be spending my days at the hospital of late.

Where does one begin? Anybody else's child falls and hurts their leg, they're up in 5 minutes. Mine? Develops a bleed and is out of commission for almost 10 days!

Kiss the potty training good bye! He broke the great timer I bought him and I got tired of carrying him back and forth to the potty.

It seems like every time I take a step forward, Gabriel hurts himself and I take 10 steps back. Should I have him in a bubble?

When he was learning how to walk, I had him wearing the Thudguard helmet, the Snazzy Baby knee pads and elbow pads. I may as well have put him in the above mentioned bubble.

It makes me think of the Seinfeld episode with the bubble boy! Seriously though, I wanted him to be safe, but in the end, he still fell and always managed to hurt the parts that were not protected. He did look cute, though!

So here I am, a few days away from Christmas and I am praying that I do not end up in the ER on Christmas Eve.

What about you all? Are you all feeling the stress of the holidays? Am I feeling it more because I've been hanging out at the hospital and letting my errands pile up?

Does a mom ever stop feeling stress or guilt? The potty training is stressing me out. When is it exactly the best time to potty train?

Are boys slower than girls at learning? Is the fact that he is getting regular treatments and is traumatized by them, causing him to not potty train properly?

What are your thoughts? Am I being neurotic or am I normal?

Helene